This relationship will pass 11 months in this month
But I dont feel like our relationship bcoming close enough, it feels like I was in long distance relationship.
He feels like very busy with his own life and study life.
I should be matured up my feeling, the first relationship but it hurts so much bcoz I only feel that he doesnt care about my life or my condition right now.
Yesterday I was crying but I didnt say to him, i only said that I was in flu condition
I know he doesnt have any time to spend with me right now.
but he said to me that he is in rush of assignment deadline, and he feels uncomfortable that one of his girlfriends insist him to come to her bday party.
He never did that to me!!!!
am i really important person to him? or im just for his status?
my heart feels like wanna explode and dont know how to face it.
I just stay calm and I hope everything will become better.
I know I cant control this feeling, i am too selfish to have him on my own.
Minggu, 07 Agustus 2011
NIGHTMARE 2days in a row
AT THAT TIME, 2DAYS FELT LIKE THE WORST DAYS IN MY WHOLE LIFE!!!
Ok I start with the first one
It was happened last week on Tuesday maybe
The scene was about my pre-wedding photo shot
dah pake indo aja biar lebih menggebu2 hahahaha
Gw kaga inget sama skali muka2 mereka (dari temen gw, tuh hantu cewe, ama calon suami gw)
Pokoknya scene nya tu kayak di hutan, soalnya mau natural photoshot gtu, kan kliatannya keren tu ijo2 trus pake baju wedding/baju pesta warna merah. cerahhhh gitu deh kliatannya
nahhhh kan pas qta lg explore daerahnya, ada salah satu team photographernya dan itu temen gw video-in ya apa pencarian daerah photoshotnya.
rencananya mau dibuat di videonya gitu dari before n after the wedding party.
Trus sampe deh diklimaks nya dimana pas temen gw tunjukin videonya ke gw, ada satu scene dimana gw lg saling tatap mata ama 1 cewe di hutan itu.
dan seinget gw n temen gw yg video-in tu NONE except our crew =="
HERANNYA kok bisa pas gtu hadap2an plus tatapan mata dari jauh.
akhirnya kita coba cari tau itu siapa sebenernya
dan akhirnya temen cowo gw ngo klo itu ex- nya cowo gw dan uda lama meninggal
pas dy meninggal masi suka ama cowo gw + dy masi dendam gara2 diputusin
makanya mgkn arwahnya masi gentayangan.
WHAT THE HELL?!!??!?! yeah i was realize it was a dream but i couldnt wake myself and remain in that dream =="
and in the morning I just felt speechless and told every1 about my weird dream and some1 told me to make a novel or horror movie with it hahahahhaa
THE NEXT DAY
There was another scary dream =="
I didnt know what have happened to me
maybe I am too tired from working, that's why I could dream anything
Yah ini lokasinya di skolahan high school gitu
Dan itu lokasinya kayaknya bukan di Indo deh soalnya ga smuanya org indo tp ada bbrp org indo disana daaaannnn seperti biasa kaga inget muka siapa pun di dalam mimpi pas bangun hahhahaha
pokoknya tu gw mau kencing dan wc cuma ada di level 5 + 3
tp wc level 5 tu super pojok dan menyeramkan makanya kaga berani pipis sndirian =="
scara kayaknya mndung2 ga jelas gtu
akhirnya gw mikir mau ke lantai 3
pas sampe lantai 3 gw puter2 sampe cape sndiri tp ga ketemu toiletnya dimana
dann akhirnya gw coba liat lg bener ga sih ini lantai 3
DID U KNOW WHAT HAPPEN NEXT? IT WAS STILL LEVEL 5
whaaaattt??!?!?!?!?!!!! so where did i go down to?
ok thats all for my stories hahahaha
the other dream is about I was in runningman show and must find a clue in ring store
the faces were the same with the real runningman show
it's kind of tiring dream bcoz i need to run ckck
Ok I start with the first one
It was happened last week on Tuesday maybe
The scene was about my pre-wedding photo shot
dah pake indo aja biar lebih menggebu2 hahahaha
Gw kaga inget sama skali muka2 mereka (dari temen gw, tuh hantu cewe, ama calon suami gw)
Pokoknya scene nya tu kayak di hutan, soalnya mau natural photoshot gtu, kan kliatannya keren tu ijo2 trus pake baju wedding/baju pesta warna merah. cerahhhh gitu deh kliatannya
nahhhh kan pas qta lg explore daerahnya, ada salah satu team photographernya dan itu temen gw video-in ya apa pencarian daerah photoshotnya.
rencananya mau dibuat di videonya gitu dari before n after the wedding party.
Trus sampe deh diklimaks nya dimana pas temen gw tunjukin videonya ke gw, ada satu scene dimana gw lg saling tatap mata ama 1 cewe di hutan itu.
dan seinget gw n temen gw yg video-in tu NONE except our crew =="
HERANNYA kok bisa pas gtu hadap2an plus tatapan mata dari jauh.
akhirnya kita coba cari tau itu siapa sebenernya
dan akhirnya temen cowo gw ngo klo itu ex- nya cowo gw dan uda lama meninggal
pas dy meninggal masi suka ama cowo gw + dy masi dendam gara2 diputusin
makanya mgkn arwahnya masi gentayangan.
WHAT THE HELL?!!??!?! yeah i was realize it was a dream but i couldnt wake myself and remain in that dream =="
and in the morning I just felt speechless and told every1 about my weird dream and some1 told me to make a novel or horror movie with it hahahahhaa
THE NEXT DAY
There was another scary dream =="
I didnt know what have happened to me
maybe I am too tired from working, that's why I could dream anything
Yah ini lokasinya di skolahan high school gitu
Dan itu lokasinya kayaknya bukan di Indo deh soalnya ga smuanya org indo tp ada bbrp org indo disana daaaannnn seperti biasa kaga inget muka siapa pun di dalam mimpi pas bangun hahhahaha
pokoknya tu gw mau kencing dan wc cuma ada di level 5 + 3
tp wc level 5 tu super pojok dan menyeramkan makanya kaga berani pipis sndirian =="
scara kayaknya mndung2 ga jelas gtu
akhirnya gw mikir mau ke lantai 3
pas sampe lantai 3 gw puter2 sampe cape sndiri tp ga ketemu toiletnya dimana
dann akhirnya gw coba liat lg bener ga sih ini lantai 3
DID U KNOW WHAT HAPPEN NEXT? IT WAS STILL LEVEL 5
whaaaattt??!?!?!?!?!!!! so where did i go down to?
ok thats all for my stories hahahaha
the other dream is about I was in runningman show and must find a clue in ring store
the faces were the same with the real runningman show
it's kind of tiring dream bcoz i need to run ckck
Minggu, 27 Maret 2011
the worst day yet to come
Bagaimanakah rasanya uda lulus trus ga dapet kerjaan kantor?
ya ini nih rasanya full of worst thing in my life :(
bayangin deh pas uda lulus, dibilangin ga ada PR ga bisa kerja di aussi
skr uda ada PR n lulus malah ga dapet2 kerjaan
1month already!!!!
I dont know how to describe my situation right now, as I know my eyes are full of tears right now.
My mom keeps asking everyday, have u applied? have u got any call? this that and everything
how can i know why i didnt get any call from employers. as i know, i only got email replied back which stated that written "unfortunately". my life feels really messy right now. i dont know what should i do.
if i can choose not to grow up, i want it right now. i dont know how to solve this problem. only GOD can answer and show me the way.
I dont have any friends that can be shared this problem. even though i have boyfriend, it feels like none of them cheer me or help me.
are they only on my side when happy moments happen?
i only can pour everything what i feel right now in this blog.
and nobody remember the link.
this will be my only secret place.
HOPEFULLY the best yet to come not the other way around! :)
ya ini nih rasanya full of worst thing in my life :(
bayangin deh pas uda lulus, dibilangin ga ada PR ga bisa kerja di aussi
skr uda ada PR n lulus malah ga dapet2 kerjaan
1month already!!!!
I dont know how to describe my situation right now, as I know my eyes are full of tears right now.
My mom keeps asking everyday, have u applied? have u got any call? this that and everything
how can i know why i didnt get any call from employers. as i know, i only got email replied back which stated that written "unfortunately". my life feels really messy right now. i dont know what should i do.
if i can choose not to grow up, i want it right now. i dont know how to solve this problem. only GOD can answer and show me the way.
I dont have any friends that can be shared this problem. even though i have boyfriend, it feels like none of them cheer me or help me.
are they only on my side when happy moments happen?
i only can pour everything what i feel right now in this blog.
and nobody remember the link.
this will be my only secret place.
HOPEFULLY the best yet to come not the other way around! :)
Minggu, 13 Maret 2011
Hello Perth!
nothing to do and spend a lot of money every day
oh my god! gimme work pleaseeee!!
ok i will continue my story (since I am still bored, because si centil still watching film silat and bbm is very lemot)
This month hasnt finised yet, so I probably post another blog in this month =P
This month I feel a lot of fun
1. I went date with my hunny bunny sweety centil hahaha
The first date not on anniversary date loh yank! did you realize that?
We went to watch Gnomeo and Juliet
it was great movie! but the duration of the movie only 1hour. so short right? :(
oh ya yank!
this month we are going to officially in relationship for HALF YEAR
yay! congratulations!
but dont make me sad and cry again ya :(
we already made a deal! so if u make me cry again, you know what you must face on! hahahaha *evil's laugh*
this is the photo on that day:
oh my god! gimme work pleaseeee!!
ok i will continue my story (since I am still bored, because si centil still watching film silat and bbm is very lemot)
This month hasnt finised yet, so I probably post another blog in this month =P
This month I feel a lot of fun
1. I went date with my hunny bunny sweety centil hahaha
The first date not on anniversary date loh yank! did you realize that?
We went to watch Gnomeo and Juliet
it was great movie! but the duration of the movie only 1hour. so short right? :(
oh ya yank!
this month we are going to officially in relationship for HALF YEAR
yay! congratulations!
but dont make me sad and cry again ya :(
we already made a deal! so if u make me cry again, you know what you must face on! hahahaha *evil's laugh*
this is the photo on that day:
feb 2011 "HELLO BEIJING"
continue on the last post
it's about my holiday in Beijing
I think I was picking the wrong month to go to beijing
why i said that? IT'S WINTER!
and it was the peak of the winter, which means the coldest in winter season + the people said it was the COLDEST WINTER EVER!
bloody hell winter
I was sick in there because I didnt well prepare for this winter
As you know I came from Perth (SUMMER! = HOT!) continued working in Indo (SUMMER every time = HUMID! because it's chinese new year time so raining everyday) and the last stop was BEIJING!!! ( the coldest winter ever)
AND I DIDNT bring any warm and thick jacket from perth. because my friend just asked me to come along with her to beijing on January 2011. So, it's the fastest decision for holiday ever!
I experienced a lot of things that I haven't seen before.
-ate scorpions, cocoon, dragonflies, sea mushroom and chinese martabak
-a lot of dirty people in chinese, they normally dont take a bath for a few days
-super dirty toilet EVERYWHERE even in shopping mall
-people talk in rude intonation (they said it's normal, so it made me surprise)
I won't go to beijing anymore
super dirty city and I already stressed when I was in there
but only one more thing that I love to do in beijing was SHOPPING!
so a lot of cheap stuff!
but my friends told me that it would be a lot cheaper in Guang Zhou
I think a lot of encik2 or engkoh2 buy their ITC's stocks in there hahaha
bcoz you must buy it in a big amount and of course you must bargain before buying it
If you dont do it, you will definitely get EXPENSIVE price ckck
some photos from my trip in Beijing:
it's about my holiday in Beijing
I think I was picking the wrong month to go to beijing
why i said that? IT'S WINTER!
and it was the peak of the winter, which means the coldest in winter season + the people said it was the COLDEST WINTER EVER!
bloody hell winter
I was sick in there because I didnt well prepare for this winter
As you know I came from Perth (SUMMER! = HOT!) continued working in Indo (SUMMER every time = HUMID! because it's chinese new year time so raining everyday) and the last stop was BEIJING!!! ( the coldest winter ever)
AND I DIDNT bring any warm and thick jacket from perth. because my friend just asked me to come along with her to beijing on January 2011. So, it's the fastest decision for holiday ever!
I experienced a lot of things that I haven't seen before.
-ate scorpions, cocoon, dragonflies, sea mushroom and chinese martabak
-a lot of dirty people in chinese, they normally dont take a bath for a few days
-super dirty toilet EVERYWHERE even in shopping mall
-people talk in rude intonation (they said it's normal, so it made me surprise)
I won't go to beijing anymore
super dirty city and I already stressed when I was in there
but only one more thing that I love to do in beijing was SHOPPING!
so a lot of cheap stuff!
but my friends told me that it would be a lot cheaper in Guang Zhou
I think a lot of encik2 or engkoh2 buy their ITC's stocks in there hahaha
bcoz you must buy it in a big amount and of course you must bargain before buying it
If you dont do it, you will definitely get EXPENSIVE price ckck
some photos from my trip in Beijing:
hello there
huahhh
welcome for me on the opening blog in 2011 :)
this is the year that full of fun, joy and sadness
ok i will explain every moment that I already had from January till March 2011
January 2011
I still did my internship in Indo
The company name is MAHATA, but it has a lot of sector inside this company
It includes:
1. MAHATA management, it has a job to arrange MARIO TEGUH's appoinment.
2. TAX SOLUTIONS
3. AIA insurance
4. Cikidang oil palm plantation
and some more
It was quite fun to work in there, but as always there must be conflict happen in every office. Some of them feel uncomfortable with the secretary who always "cari muka" in front of the boss. I couldn't contribute my opinion at all. I was only a temporary worker who was doing internship. hahaha.
for me it was a great lesson, so better have a meeting every a few weeks or months among the workers better than ended up on hating each other like that.
MTAS photos:
welcome for me on the opening blog in 2011 :)
this is the year that full of fun, joy and sadness
ok i will explain every moment that I already had from January till March 2011
January 2011
I still did my internship in Indo
The company name is MAHATA, but it has a lot of sector inside this company
It includes:
1. MAHATA management, it has a job to arrange MARIO TEGUH's appoinment.
2. TAX SOLUTIONS
3. AIA insurance
4. Cikidang oil palm plantation
and some more
It was quite fun to work in there, but as always there must be conflict happen in every office. Some of them feel uncomfortable with the secretary who always "cari muka" in front of the boss. I couldn't contribute my opinion at all. I was only a temporary worker who was doing internship. hahaha.
for me it was a great lesson, so better have a meeting every a few weeks or months among the workers better than ended up on hating each other like that.
MTAS photos:
Jumat, 03 Desember 2010
at jakarta
wohooo this is my 1st blog in jakarta since arrival date!
oh my gosh today im so tired and sleepy when i was in working place
i dont have any idea what should i do and everything is totally different from AUS
oh la la.. i must start from the beginning again =(
so tired lah~
the staff always bully me today, but it's ok bcoz it made the office situation feel better than keep quiet >.<
i hope i can adapt in this office on wards for my internship =S
oh my gosh today im so tired and sleepy when i was in working place
i dont have any idea what should i do and everything is totally different from AUS
oh la la.. i must start from the beginning again =(
so tired lah~
the staff always bully me today, but it's ok bcoz it made the office situation feel better than keep quiet >.<
i hope i can adapt in this office on wards for my internship =S
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