the worst day yet to come

Bagaimanakah rasanya uda lulus trus ga dapet kerjaan kantor?
ya ini nih rasanya full of worst thing in my life :(
bayangin deh pas uda lulus, dibilangin ga ada PR ga bisa kerja di aussi
skr uda ada PR n lulus malah ga dapet2 kerjaan
1month already!!!!
I dont know how to describe my situation right now, as I know my eyes are full of tears right now.
My mom keeps asking everyday, have u applied? have u got any call? this that and everything
how can i know why i didnt get any call from employers. as i know, i only got email replied back which stated that written "unfortunately". my life feels really messy right now. i dont know what should i do.
if i can choose not to grow up, i want it right now. i dont know how to solve this problem. only GOD can answer and show me the way.
I dont have any friends that can be shared this problem. even though i have boyfriend, it feels like none of them cheer me or help me.
are they only on my side when happy moments happen?

i only can pour everything what i feel right now in this blog.
and nobody remember the link.
this will be my only secret place.
HOPEFULLY the best yet to come not the other way around! :)